Purpose

It's December 24th, and I've been excited all day. For the first time in fifteen years, I feel much like I did on Christmas Eve as a child. But it’s not because I can’t wait for Christmas Day. It’s because I can’t wait for New Years Day. Yeah, I can’t wait for the year to be over.

I’m not much for the holidays. I enjoy spending time with friends and family, and giving and receiving gifts is great and all. But as a staunch atheist who believes that the way we mark time is as arbitrary as the turn of a river card, they don’t mean a whole hell of a lot to me. So why am I excited about January First?

Because I’ve hatched a psychotic plan to get Supernova Elite next year in a rather tight time frame, without limiting my play solely to PokerStars. This is something that I’m thoroughly unprepared for. So why do I plan on putting myself through hell for money?

After reading some of Dusty’s blogs and half watching It’s A Wonderful Life for the nineteenth time, I remembered that I’d really like to do some things that help people in my lifetime. And a lot of those things take money. So I’m going to get me some, ASAP. Then I can start my chain of vegan quick food restaurants, open an affordable dojang in this expensive city, and start some sort of scholarship program for the self-educated.

Over the course of my life, I’ve had a hard time motivating myself for long enough to reach much of my potential. I think keeping a sharp eye on what I really want to get done is what I’ve been missing. I don’t believe in god, religion, or even morality, but I do believe in good. And I’d like to do some of it. Quite selfishly, it’s what makes me happy.

1 comment:

  1. hear hear !
    i feel you on that one !

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